via naturally ninaI'm in a weird mood these days. I'm a lil blue...ummm....a lot blue actually. I can't help feeling defeated and it's driving me nuts. If you knew me in real life, you'd know that this is odd - I'm a life liver...smile giver...joy seeker. I enjoy the ride...you know?
I need to get out of this sad place (that I'm sure has to do with the car crash I was in last week, or the fact that my computer also crashed last week, or that I had to take my medical boards exam this week and it sucked, or that I'm miserable at the hospital rotation I'm in right now, or that I'm living far away from everyone I know, or that I'm questioning my choice of going into medicine in the first place, or that I don't get a single day off this month - yes, I work at the hospital every. single. day.) Yes - I just threw myself a pity party. Yea, it sorta made me feel better.
I will smile easily again. I just have to keep breathing.
I need to get out of this sad place (that I'm sure has to do with the car crash I was in last week, or the fact that my computer also crashed last week, or that I had to take my medical boards exam this week and it sucked, or that I'm miserable at the hospital rotation I'm in right now, or that I'm living far away from everyone I know, or that I'm questioning my choice of going into medicine in the first place, or that I don't get a single day off this month - yes, I work at the hospital every. single. day.) Yes - I just threw myself a pity party. Yea, it sorta made me feel better.
I will smile easily again. I just have to keep breathing.
Ugh, I'd be throwing myself a pity party too! No fun. Just think of your wedding that is soon to come and your move!
ReplyDeleteyour life has so much tough stuff going on right now...i don't blame you for getting down. we need to take a step back to breathe and appreciate the little things, to get us through to a better time. best wishes to you.
ReplyDeleteit probably won't make you feel better...but I'm in lab right now at 6:30 on a Saturday with no end in sight...I guess I'm thankful for running a gel to get a break to catch up on blogs...but then I just get so overwhelmed with...everything.
ReplyDeleteno days off?? ugh. everyone is allowed a little pity party. things just suck right now. but you have the end in sight and tommy to look forward to. just cry and scream a little and then breathe and you'll feel better.
ReplyDeleteyou can't always be the one to rescue everyone's mood. although you've helped mine a lot in the last two days despite you feeling crappy.
Well, you've had no days off at a time when everything would have been stressful enough, and then the accident and computer got thrown into the mix.
ReplyDeleteCongratulate yourself for surviving it!!!